False God

It’s a dangerous thing to romanticize

the past, to allow the nostalgia to drag

up old memories from the depths

of our hearts and fashion them into

something they’re not.

We build a mirage from a memory

and knelt before it like a false god.

What we called love was nothing

but foolish hope.

-Poem by: Beau Taplin

#uncertanties

Equal

The sun sets

We’re both in isolation

With the one that matters to us the most

Whom used to be close enough

And we wished to never be apart

But that’s how fate makes us together

To comfort each other

And now here we are

Busying ourselves

Productivity- that’s our new motto!

Until what’s left in the future is the memories

of the past

You and I in the present

Consoling each other

I saw it through your blue eyes

The grief

just like the hazel eyes

And we cuddled

As I caress the white fur

I stared at the ‘latte’

I guess you endure the same pain

So I said…

We are now both

EQUAL.

The gaze

It is still fresh in my memory

It was us

On a journey to the south

Hours before we departed

It was just a mere glance

As I waited for thoughtful answers being uttered

Your eyes were having difficulty to drive at night

or rainy days

you said it is okay

I felt safe

Though I still have doubt

And I still remember

A slight glimpse that evening

I don’t have to wait for years or months

But it only takes a few seconds

That finally left me

an everlasting affection.

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A scene of desolation

You were covered with sweat

Filled with joy

Until a time bomb stopped ticking

Only you could feel the explosion

Your iced heart stopped beating for one second

After a moment of joy

Comes a new phase of life

You hid yourself under the veil

invisible and unseen

Experiencing your hands are being tied

Your body was slowly drowning

Into the deepest freezing ocean

Until one moment

I tried reaching your hands

stretching my arms as far as I could

until all I could touch is the end of your fingertips

both of us froze abruptly

Stopped moving nor trying

I thenceforth realized that

Your legs are

Being tied.

The invisible string

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It was unclear

Every time I tried to run as far as I could

You reappeared in my life

You followed me everywhere I go

Like a ghost.

I wish I am as free as the birds flying on the sky

Not afraid of going anywhere I wish to

Because I believe

Deep down

That He has written something for me

My rizq, the day and place that I will surely die…

 

 

Sadly, you are holding me down

Like an invisible string

The one that I could not find to cut it away to set myself free

I told you to let me go slowly

I don’t want to be attached

Inch by inch

I received less questions

Less jokes

Less thoughts

You slowly fade away

What’s left in my mind is the memory of you.

You’re still haunting me day by day

Every single second of my life

I wish it was easier

But it is not

Because controlling these invisible things is like catching the air

It’s unseen, but you surely feel it’s presence

Though I am not in control of it

I am pretty sure that

Soon

I will be just

OKAY.

Just like a butterfly

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It is a cycle,

Life isn’t stagnant,

That always change,

From one to another.

 

Sometimes it can be nice,

Sometimes it can be bad,

There are times when you are at your best,

But there are also times when you are at your worst!

 

One thing I believe,

When bad things happen,

There are good things ahead,

And I’m sure it’s true.

 

Our life is like a cycle,

Just like butterflies,

First you need to be on your own,

Only then you are free to explore things.

 

The first stage is the hardest,

The second becomes easier,

The next stage becomes better,

While the last is the best!

 

Just like a butterfly,

First you’re just an egg and stays in a place,

Next you’re a crawling caterpillar,

Then imprisoned in chrysalis to find strength.

 

 

Moving out slowly and carefully,

Trying to break the pupa and see the world,

Finally flying out freely,

Elegantly, happily!

 

Moving wings as far as you could,

Sucking honey from diverse types of flowers,

See a different new world,

And most importantly, you’re imprisoned!

 

You’re just free…

 

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